The complexity of human life

I should apologize up front. The subject heading was a play on words. I am not going to wax poetic about how layered and deep my thoughts are. How love and emotion and sadness and euphoria can sweep my body all over at once. You know, the usual "artsy fartsy" talk that follows a line like "The complexity of human life."

No, I am talking about how human life is the construction of a bunch of complexity (confused yet?). Protons, neurons, double helix, mucus, bone, freckles, hair, etc., etc. compose the make up of the human body, and we haven't even got to the emotions, sensations, and feelings part of the whole thing. You know, the physics of this whole thing. Life and creation is a complex subject. Volumes of work, findings, and studies have been published and broadcast for thousands of years, and yet, not everything is known. Theories abound about human life, science, physics, and the complete makeup of the earth.

Except to one person...GOD.

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He understands the complexity and physics of all of it, he created it. This current, living, breathing, and wonderful life. Everything else that goes with it too. To God, there are no theories just the facts.

Take a honest, giant step back and think about that for a minute. Just ponder this fact. Peel off the layers. Realize that God is truly the creator of everything living right now, everything that has died, and everything that will. There is no majic formula to this. It is what it is. God literally "breathed life into Adam."

Continue to think about this and keep peeling those layers back.

God hasn't stopped there. He created an afterlife. AN AFTERLIFE!!!! This is phenomenal. It is promised to every human being.

But you know what, do not stop there, keep peeling the layers back.

God has created all this, "he gives and he taketh away." He is responsible for birth and death. Yet, he has not experienced either, nor will he. This is mind-shattering. Take an even bigger step back and contemplate this? Is it even possible to comprehend this?

This fact consumes my thoughts sometimes. It is too much for me to comprehend. All my life I have seen things born and die. Everything starts from something and everything ends. Except God.

You cannot stop there though. Peel another layer back and you realize that God created all, God understands it all, God was not born, created, or will die, and God does not inhabot space.

What?! Huh!! That is right. He doesn't really live in a space.

He is there.

That sentence almost seems too simple but is truly majestic. He is all of it and he is everywhere. Truly eternal, truly omnipotent, and truly a Supreme Being.

All of these facts, when wound together and laid out like this, quite frankly, freak me out completely. Sometimes while laying in bed at night, this thought consumes me and I lay awake trying to wrap my mind around it. The more I try, the more I cannot. Butterflys build in my stomach, my heart beats harder and faster, and breathing becomes short. I eventually roll onto my back and stare up at the ceiling, like I'll see something besides the flat white painted plaster ceiling. It is terror and fear. Not Freddy Krueger terror, but genuine terror.

Most times I wonder why I feel this? Should I feel this? Should I be concerned, that as a believer, this fact terrorizes me? I believe in all of it, but am scared by it just the same.

Why?